They say that 'Never give up the things that make you smile.!'
So, it's unimaginable to lose you. It almost makes me feel sick to the stomach to think of a life without you. I still recollect the despising moments when people close to me left me astray. In simpler words, I don't want to be a chapter from your life's book; I want to be the book!
For once I want to be as special for you as you are to me. For once I want you to take a stand for me. For once I don't want to be the reason for misunderstandings in your life. And if you can't do this simple thing then you ain't got any right to hurt a heart!
When you still remember me in the midst of your busy schedule, I feel glad and important. You say you are dying to see me smile; can't you see that you are my smile. After suffering endlessly for five years, I am so weak that even a slightest of pain makes me cringe. Sometimes all you can do is laugh to keep yourself from crying. Though when I am with you, I can effortlessly smile all my life.
I am blessed to have you in this hard time. You are my shield from all the pain existing in the world. I have learnt that sometimes the people who enter your life unexpectantly stay longer; however I want you to stay forever till my last breath. It's like I want to close my eyes seeing you the last.
Am so done with my experiments of life, now I just want to sit back and apply all that I learnt. I can no longer waste time in trusting new people and getting ditched by them. Lucky I am to have found you while experimenting for the very last time.